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Monday # 10,826

I suffer from depression, and some related issues like anxiety. I was first treated for it in a few years ago, though my condition predates that treatment by some unknown amount. Since that time, I’ve had varying success managing that aspect of myself, but most of the time I can keep it from interfering much with my personal and professional life.

The severity of my condition varies, and lately it has varied…against me. I’m not really functional, due to a combination of random-onset crying, incredible fatigue, (even for me) very high distractability, and virtually no motivation or enjoyment of my usual pleasures and rewards.

I am 100% certain that I’m going to be OK. I’ve been through episodes like this before — though it’s been perhaps a decade since the last one of this severity — and I have always come out the other side with a better understanding of myself and improvements to my life. I am intellectually optimistic, even if my emotional state doesn’t often match these days. I could not wish for a more supportive family, circle of friends, and set of co-workers. I’m truly touched by the kind notes and words from so many people already, even though I know that my absence will make their lives harder for a while.

If we could discuss mental illness with the same candor as we do our diets, food allergies, back pain, or diabetes, I think that it would be much easier for people to get the help they need. It is very hard to make good decisions about treatment (like to get some!) when your very mind is working against you; doing it alone is terrifying and for many people virtually impossible. I am incredibly fortunate to have the support, experience, and resources that I do, and it is still a very difficult thing for me to work through.

on the bus…

testing out quickpress. not too tough via the phone.

a quick recap – did inventory catch up on saturday, had a moment of net loss at work on sunday from 11-3ish. apparently comcast isn`t the only dc area fail. (at least verizon was a sunday)

sunday dinner was a lot of circles with a few squares inside – cheese and crackers with in-laws, veggie shepherds pie, with homemade apple pie for dessert.

got lunged up a bit last night -cpap helped a lot, though.

slept from about 930pm to 5 this am.

fully enjoying xmas music now… close enough for it to make sense. lego advent calendar has been a lot of fun so far… blacksmith and a knight with assorted anvil and hammer equipment so far.

today should be a busy one… lots to do and review. talk to you later, dear journal!

100,092 – Thursday

Nutshelling today –

got my shots, bhk got a good set of samples for meds – cover a month or two, and we got to see Britney after a looong time..

snow prep – no milk eggs or bread at any grocer… but they are at 7-lebbin!

Picked up Dry Cleaning, before the snow comes!

Watched the 2007 BBC series pilot of Jekyll – if the rest is as good as the first episode, I’ll be really sad when it ends.

1 year ago – dinner, snow, work, 20 worst foods of 2009
2 years ago – coughing, eggplant lasagna, black diamond question, blue crab harvest worst
3 years ago – planning the garden w/pix, DRYER FIRE, pomonkey, updated bio, newt and pye touching in the loft pix (this is still one of my faves
4 years ago – childhood goat trauma foundation, sleepless in seattle (stalker), Wasp performs roach-brain-surgery to make zombie slave-roaches, deerfield has a different sort of fauna than ftl, rainy, quizzes, 
5 years ago – smoother sailing, sleeping in airports, Bigfoot 911, weather, Trism lyric
6 years ago – 7 sins meme, hand-foot coordination, stood up for b-day dinner
7 years ago – dreams, haiku, Irish curses, random politeness factoid, more palm-cam pics, nice cards!
8 years ago – Moonflower haiku, bus rides, tulpa-folk, what do people see quiz, miss cleo got in trubbah, quiet apartments
9 years ago – Snorks vs. Smurfs, recovering from sickies, lovey-loves, butch or femmeGeotarget

100,91 – Wednesday

rough day – Body and mind running a bit dark for much of today. It’ll be better soon, though.

Swung by ChNaCa with the in-laws, had supper at Ledo’s, got some groceries.

1 year ago – shaved to goat, feeling poorly, mr meaty, quiz-meme
2 years ago – patriots lose, taco salad, puppy bowl IV, birthday loot from BHK, no danny or bro?, online greets
3 years ago – party recap, loot, letter meme
4 years ago – more compusa customer “service”, walkabout, lj login track, brokeback to the future, coke machines
5 years ago – b’day recap, apple mice, food, Polish reader, referrer spam, Mel mush, endless meme, choco taco/cool dog, zombie spammers,
6 years ago – bday loot, Danny lick pic
7 years ago – os quiz, littler big sis writes me a birfday song, palm-cam pics, suction crab
8 years ago – nice day after, Newt-stalks, S & D = B & C, haiku ,picture links 
9 years ago – SPOOT, correspondence old school, vagg, go ask Alice and afraid to askGeotarget

10,078 – Friday

Today, I’m feeling a bit worse for wear – these antibiotics are tearing BHK and my guts up.

Spent the morning looking for work, and as a reward of sorts, BHK gave me her Mütter Museum pen that is shaped like an arm bone. Spent the evening watching the IT crowd, playing Wii Sports Resort with the Nailles and enjoying homemade mac & cheese with a side of veggie hot dogs from the grill!

I dreamt that Pye and Newton were horseshoe crabs, but still had their kitty tails…. somehow they could climb walls with their little hairy crab legs.

Dave sent me this – I don’t know if he drew it, but it cracked me up for about a half hour! (It looks like his style)

1 year ago – hug, element alignment, self portrait pic, pye on cam, tattoo fear, Obameter, Obama retakes oath

2 years ago – busy month, knees and backs, Bill O’Reilly doesn’t know about homeless vets, hello kitty counterstrike, Q&A meme

3 years ago – newtcam live, snow pics, reh 101, spidey hits (what killed my youtube acct)

4 years ago – superhero drawing memes, CNY, Bro’s situation improved briefly, lost, spidey video views, Sting

5 years ago – Worked late, En’s cable out, sad- sicky mel, busy phone, amber alert, great day to be alive theme

6 years agoYear of the monkey!, new icons, act like a monkey, a fellow ljers house burns down

7 years ago – honey rant, healing hands, newt pic, cuss control, cold snap

8 years ago – spy ware killer, stab-dream, home school poll, animal noises around the world, sound

9 years ago – IMT stuff, be good, Model of the modern super-criminal, birthday wishGeotarget Geotarget

10,076 – Wednesday

BHK and I both hit the doctor today – augmentin for both of us – me, for my chest and ear issues, BHK for her congestion and infection issues. Hopefully, that will knock out what’s been in BHK’s system since new year’s, and mine in the last week or so.

Making the most of our holiday gift cards – breakfast at starbucks courtesy of Dave & Cathy – the chocolate-chip banana bread is *very* good.

After that, we hit safeway to pick up our meds… and gamestop for a used copy of  boom blox bash party (the other game we got – octomania was horrible beyond keeping.)

Duncan looks adorable in the scarf BHK made for him! (he looks adorable anyhow)

1 year ago – BHK inauguration cake pic, party at J and Seans’s
2 years ago – BHK’s super skateboard, looted BHK’s old room, George of the Jungle, Wii games, Pizza, cookies, and Movies
3 years ago – newt lounging pics
4 years ago – big brain wait, college students illiterate, LN, little prince,
5 years ago – Sicky Mel, PSA, No new drama month, paypal button for charity, weather, Korean postal robots guards, MA lobster strike, Monkey king, fibs and truths answers, weather
6 years ago – crapulent, British WWII photo archive, Chick Tract, homeowners groups lacking
7 years ago – bawled out my bro, bashed up my hands.
8 years ago – walkies, coloring book fairy, waterlog ear, some dead links and some live ones, full moon birth, good dreams.
9 years ago – Iron Man, brain eating, thinking about my dad, First experience with a good LJ client, Fred the enema cat. Geotarget

10,071 – Friday the 15th.

terribly sick – probably shouldn’t have gone out and about yesterday – I’m really gravelly and wiped out. Probably won’t go over to the Naille’s for game night this evening. sore throat, sore joints, high fatigue.

The upside is that I’m  enjoying Colors! on the DS and streaming old-school radio and tv detective shows.

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having a bad hair day – what happens when you spend the day sick in bed. I feel like a hood ornament.

1 year ago – back to work, snow day, february vacation time lined up, holiday remainders, Getting BHK hooked on OTR, minor slim jim scratcher victory.
2 years ago – ides of January, snow, sublimation, veggie meatloaf yum!, 1970’s tv detectives, chimp declared a person, psych
3 years ago – moved into the brown house
4 years ago – nudge (I like it now), my latest superpower, electrocution dream, soloing, caribs, pandas make more sense, stardust probe returns,
5 years ago – Jambi back after the great LJ crash of ’05, William Schmidt’s art, film feminism, chemical weapons, mag knight w/Danny, DVDA
6 years ago – DVD cereal, Mars, cluck cluck cluck
7 years ago – smokies, palm sync, empenadas, Malawi Vampires
8 years ago – nice walk, moody, gave sappho a lj code, midnight pooper, newt patrols
9 years ago – pictures of me with [info]tarpo at No-nose maldanado’s, company on the rocks, ramble on humanity, temptation island, super-soldiers, link to 100 Scotto-things Geotarget

10,070 – Thursday

Nutshelling to catch up – backdated, so it shouldn’t autopost everywhere.

I am still sick – went out to pick up my acekard2i at ups with Chris and BHK. I’ll be putting homebrews on my christmas prezzie in no time!

Of course, a trip with Chris means shopping, so I parked at gamestop while BHK and her mom roamed around homegoods and pier 1.

1 year ago – “I need to talk to you”, upset stomach, Cap’n Bluebear, BHK nightmare
2 years ago – Newton on cam pic w/laundry, water cooler, psych, pizza bagels, unlimited netflix stream, free gas from chavez, call for guantanamo to be closed
3 years ago – pye in lockup, on the way home pic
4 years ago – shoo prezzie, swim / iguana fear, batgirl meme (and my palm doodle), folks quitting acim, trivia meme, porpoise song, dracula’s dinosaur death dreams, kenneth koskela in comments
5 years ago – Spidey a teacher’s aide, palm doodles, bus pictures, bizarro ipod
6 years ago – Media player classic, Chinese connection, old gaming notes (with diagrams), Florida laws, high school meme, monkeys!, work hubbub
7 years ago – evil quiz, printable gizmos, supergun, enviro-boots
8 years ago – visited hippies, cool clock, warm, groceries, kevin smith quiz, silly linkies, ramble about x-ray-eyes, SOP, etc
9 years ago – fun quotes, romance test, victorian flower symbolism, bill hicks Geotarget

10,069 – wednesday

Hump day again, again, dear journal. Some good news – Netflix is coming to the Wii this spring- http://bit.ly/6tYtRz

Woke up with a sore throat – hopefully I’m not succumbing to BHK’s lingering congestion, and it was only dust from the loft. We’ll know more soon enough!

Telephone interview today – it went well! I look forward to hearing more from them soon.

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Nurse Newt Making sure I’m tucked in.

1 year ago – Sick, TV and Dr. BHK and Nurses Newt & Pye take care of me.
2 years ago – frying pan, aardvark, bugah, HL2, not a hardcore gamer anymore
3 years ago – dream ramble – voice post
4 years ago – icon snatching, lost, dr who, flickr tools, books, compusa, meeting of the daves, cool weather, birds ate my brains, prejudice map, findory,
5 years ago – Lost, romainan pop inspires .htaccess, supercar, anonymous statement meme, age act meme
6 years ago – That Stretchy Guy & That Clay Guy.
7 years ago – cops, prezzies, kidthinks
8 years ago – space commies and monkeys, dream, haiku, mothman, tarot
9 years ago – SOS, folk fest, annoyed with collapsing tabs, brian howdy, super friends drinking game Geotarget

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