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Monday # 10,826

I suffer from depression, and some related issues like anxiety. I was first treated for it in a few years ago, though my condition predates that treatment by some unknown amount. Since that time, I’ve had varying success managing that aspect of myself, but most of the time I can keep it from interfering much with my personal and professional life.

The severity of my condition varies, and lately it has varied…against me. I’m not really functional, due to a combination of random-onset crying, incredible fatigue, (even for me) very high distractability, and virtually no motivation or enjoyment of my usual pleasures and rewards.

I am 100% certain that I’m going to be OK. I’ve been through episodes like this before — though it’s been perhaps a decade since the last one of this severity — and I have always come out the other side with a better understanding of myself and improvements to my life. I am intellectually optimistic, even if my emotional state doesn’t often match these days. I could not wish for a more supportive family, circle of friends, and set of co-workers. I’m truly touched by the kind notes and words from so many people already, even though I know that my absence will make their lives harder for a while.

If we could discuss mental illness with the same candor as we do our diets, food allergies, back pain, or diabetes, I think that it would be much easier for people to get the help they need. It is very hard to make good decisions about treatment (like to get some!) when your very mind is working against you; doing it alone is terrifying and for many people virtually impossible. I am incredibly fortunate to have the support, experience, and resources that I do, and it is still a very difficult thing for me to work through.

on the bus…

testing out quickpress. not too tough via the phone.

a quick recap – did inventory catch up on saturday, had a moment of net loss at work on sunday from 11-3ish. apparently comcast isn`t the only dc area fail. (at least verizon was a sunday)

sunday dinner was a lot of circles with a few squares inside – cheese and crackers with in-laws, veggie shepherds pie, with homemade apple pie for dessert.

got lunged up a bit last night -cpap helped a lot, though.

slept from about 930pm to 5 this am.

fully enjoying xmas music now… close enough for it to make sense. lego advent calendar has been a lot of fun so far… blacksmith and a knight with assorted anvil and hammer equipment so far.

today should be a busy one… lots to do and review. talk to you later, dear journal!

100,092 – Thursday

Nutshelling today –

got my shots, bhk got a good set of samples for meds – cover a month or two, and we got to see Britney after a looong time..

snow prep – no milk eggs or bread at any grocer… but they are at 7-lebbin!

Picked up Dry Cleaning, before the snow comes!

Watched the 2007 BBC series pilot of Jekyll – if the rest is as good as the first episode, I’ll be really sad when it ends.

1 year ago – dinner, snow, work, 20 worst foods of 2009
2 years ago – coughing, eggplant lasagna, black diamond question, blue crab harvest worst
3 years ago – planning the garden w/pix, DRYER FIRE, pomonkey, updated bio, newt and pye touching in the loft pix (this is still one of my faves
4 years ago – childhood goat trauma foundation, sleepless in seattle (stalker), Wasp performs roach-brain-surgery to make zombie slave-roaches, deerfield has a different sort of fauna than ftl, rainy, quizzes, 
5 years ago – smoother sailing, sleeping in airports, Bigfoot 911, weather, Trism lyric
6 years ago – 7 sins meme, hand-foot coordination, stood up for b-day dinner
7 years ago – dreams, haiku, Irish curses, random politeness factoid, more palm-cam pics, nice cards!
8 years ago – Moonflower haiku, bus rides, tulpa-folk, what do people see quiz, miss cleo got in trubbah, quiet apartments
9 years ago – Snorks vs. Smurfs, recovering from sickies, lovey-loves, butch or femmeGeotarget

100,91 – Wednesday

rough day – Body and mind running a bit dark for much of today. It’ll be better soon, though.

Swung by ChNaCa with the in-laws, had supper at Ledo’s, got some groceries.

1 year ago – shaved to goat, feeling poorly, mr meaty, quiz-meme
2 years ago – patriots lose, taco salad, puppy bowl IV, birthday loot from BHK, no danny or bro?, online greets
3 years ago – party recap, loot, letter meme
4 years ago – more compusa customer “service”, walkabout, lj login track, brokeback to the future, coke machines
5 years ago – b’day recap, apple mice, food, Polish reader, referrer spam, Mel mush, endless meme, choco taco/cool dog, zombie spammers,
6 years ago – bday loot, Danny lick pic
7 years ago – os quiz, littler big sis writes me a birfday song, palm-cam pics, suction crab
8 years ago – nice day after, Newt-stalks, S & D = B & C, haiku ,picture links 
9 years ago – SPOOT, correspondence old school, vagg, go ask Alice and afraid to askGeotarget

10,078 – Friday

Today, I’m feeling a bit worse for wear – these antibiotics are tearing BHK and my guts up.

Spent the morning looking for work, and as a reward of sorts, BHK gave me her Mütter Museum pen that is shaped like an arm bone. Spent the evening watching the IT crowd, playing Wii Sports Resort with the Nailles and enjoying homemade mac & cheese with a side of veggie hot dogs from the grill!

I dreamt that Pye and Newton were horseshoe crabs, but still had their kitty tails…. somehow they could climb walls with their little hairy crab legs.

Dave sent me this – I don’t know if he drew it, but it cracked me up for about a half hour! (It looks like his style)

1 year ago – hug, element alignment, self portrait pic, pye on cam, tattoo fear, Obameter, Obama retakes oath

2 years ago – busy month, knees and backs, Bill O’Reilly doesn’t know about homeless vets, hello kitty counterstrike, Q&A meme

3 years ago – newtcam live, snow pics, reh 101, spidey hits (what killed my youtube acct)

4 years ago – superhero drawing memes, CNY, Bro’s situation improved briefly, lost, spidey video views, Sting

5 years ago – Worked late, En’s cable out, sad- sicky mel, busy phone, amber alert, great day to be alive theme

6 years agoYear of the monkey!, new icons, act like a monkey, a fellow ljers house burns down

7 years ago – honey rant, healing hands, newt pic, cuss control, cold snap

8 years ago – spy ware killer, stab-dream, home school poll, animal noises around the world, sound

9 years ago – IMT stuff, be good, Model of the modern super-criminal, birthday wishGeotarget Geotarget

10,076 – Wednesday

BHK and I both hit the doctor today – augmentin for both of us – me, for my chest and ear issues, BHK for her congestion and infection issues. Hopefully, that will knock out what’s been in BHK’s system since new year’s, and mine in the last week or so.

Making the most of our holiday gift cards – breakfast at starbucks courtesy of Dave & Cathy – the chocolate-chip banana bread is *very* good.

After that, we hit safeway to pick up our meds… and gamestop for a used copy of  boom blox bash party (the other game we got – octomania was horrible beyond keeping.)

Duncan looks adorable in the scarf BHK made for him! (he looks adorable anyhow)

1 year ago – BHK inauguration cake pic, party at J and Seans’s
2 years ago – BHK’s super skateboard, looted BHK’s old room, George of the Jungle, Wii games, Pizza, cookies, and Movies
3 years ago – newt lounging pics
4 years ago – big brain wait, college students illiterate, LN, little prince,
5 years ago – Sicky Mel, PSA, No new drama month, paypal button for charity, weather, Korean postal robots guards, MA lobster strike, Monkey king, fibs and truths answers, weather
6 years ago – crapulent, British WWII photo archive, Chick Tract, homeowners groups lacking
7 years ago – bawled out my bro, bashed up my hands.
8 years ago – walkies, coloring book fairy, waterlog ear, some dead links and some live ones, full moon birth, good dreams.
9 years ago – Iron Man, brain eating, thinking about my dad, First experience with a good LJ client, Fred the enema cat. Geotarget

10,071 – Friday the 15th.

terribly sick – probably shouldn’t have gone out and about yesterday – I’m really gravelly and wiped out. Probably won’t go over to the Naille’s for game night this evening. sore throat, sore joints, high fatigue.

The upside is that I’m  enjoying Colors! on the DS and streaming old-school radio and tv detective shows.

having a bad hair day – what happens when you spend the day sick in bed. I feel like a hood ornament.

1 year ago – back to work, snow day, february vacation time lined up, holiday remainders, Getting BHK hooked on OTR, minor slim jim scratcher victory.
2 years ago – ides of January, snow, sublimation, veggie meatloaf yum!, 1970’s tv detectives, chimp declared a person, psych
3 years ago – moved into the brown house
4 years ago – nudge (I like it now), my latest superpower, electrocution dream, soloing, caribs, pandas make more sense, stardust probe returns,
5 years ago – Jambi back after the great LJ crash of ’05, William Schmidt’s art, film feminism, chemical weapons, mag knight w/Danny, DVDA
6 years ago – DVD cereal, Mars, cluck cluck cluck
7 years ago – smokies, palm sync, empenadas, Malawi Vampires
8 years ago – nice walk, moody, gave sappho a lj code, midnight pooper, newt patrols
9 years ago – pictures of me with [info]tarpo at No-nose maldanado’s, company on the rocks, ramble on humanity, temptation island, super-soldiers, link to 100 Scotto-things Geotarget

10,070 – Thursday

Nutshelling to catch up – backdated, so it shouldn’t autopost everywhere.

I am still sick – went out to pick up my acekard2i at ups with Chris and BHK. I’ll be putting homebrews on my christmas prezzie in no time!

Of course, a trip with Chris means shopping, so I parked at gamestop while BHK and her mom roamed around homegoods and pier 1.

1 year ago – “I need to talk to you”, upset stomach, Cap’n Bluebear, BHK nightmare
2 years ago – Newton on cam pic w/laundry, water cooler, psych, pizza bagels, unlimited netflix stream, free gas from chavez, call for guantanamo to be closed
3 years ago – pye in lockup, on the way home pic
4 years ago – shoo prezzie, swim / iguana fear, batgirl meme (and my palm doodle), folks quitting acim, trivia meme, porpoise song, dracula’s dinosaur death dreams, kenneth koskela in comments
5 years ago – Spidey a teacher’s aide, palm doodles, bus pictures, bizarro ipod
6 years ago – Media player classic, Chinese connection, old gaming notes (with diagrams), Florida laws, high school meme, monkeys!, work hubbub
7 years ago – evil quiz, printable gizmos, supergun, enviro-boots
8 years ago – visited hippies, cool clock, warm, groceries, kevin smith quiz, silly linkies, ramble about x-ray-eyes, SOP, etc
9 years ago – fun quotes, romance test, victorian flower symbolism, bill hicks Geotarget

10,069 – wednesday

Hump day again, again, dear journal. Some good news – Netflix is coming to the Wii this spring- http://bit.ly/6tYtRz

Woke up with a sore throat – hopefully I’m not succumbing to BHK’s lingering congestion, and it was only dust from the loft. We’ll know more soon enough!

Telephone interview today – it went well! I look forward to hearing more from them soon.



Nurse Newt Making sure I’m tucked in.

1 year ago – Sick, TV and Dr. BHK and Nurses Newt & Pye take care of me.
2 years ago – frying pan, aardvark, bugah, HL2, not a hardcore gamer anymore
3 years ago – dream ramble – voice post
4 years ago – icon snatching, lost, dr who, flickr tools, books, compusa, meeting of the daves, cool weather, birds ate my brains, prejudice map, findory,
5 years ago – Lost, romainan pop inspires .htaccess, supercar, anonymous statement meme, age act meme
6 years ago – That Stretchy Guy & That Clay Guy.
7 years ago – cops, prezzies, kidthinks
8 years ago – space commies and monkeys, dream, haiku, mothman, tarot
9 years ago – SOS, folk fest, annoyed with collapsing tabs, brian howdy, super friends drinking game Geotarget


9675 – Thursday –

Went back to the doctor yesterday, and was scheduled for an epidural on 4/28. Hopefully, that’ll help with the sciatica issues… and I’d *really* like it if someone canceled early, so I don’t have to wait just shy of three weeks to get treatment.

We had dinner on the porch last night – it was nice, but still a wee bit chilly. sub sammiches, as the sun went down.

No Franklin this morning, but saw the little brown girl cat last night while waiting for BHK to pick me up.

BHK found me a ton of new clothes at the thrift store – some giant must’ve gotten a new wardrobe, because I have something like a dozen or more shirts. Mostly short sleeved plaid stuff like I enjoy, but a few dress shirts suitable for work, too.

Enjoyed both episodes of the office, and parks & Rec was ok too.

1 year ago – Shazam! haiku, earworms, Beheaded Bavarian in my family

2 years ago – losing weight, palm doodles, subway buskers, bluetooth, female health, restless sleep, clicks down, bro contact

3 years ago – fiddling with layouts, queen, cute newt on the patio pic, genographic project, wayfaring, logophile, about trees, euro tests, 3d museum, time-travelling chiro

4 years ago – no eclipse, ed-mv/st, The end of Kim Possible, Newton-cat animation, FL sheriff abuse of power

5 years ago – Frog & manatee palm doodle, city of heroes goes to 3 servers, condos, recovery

6 years ago – Babar Mourns, bro stuff, poem/hat

7 years ago – elephant armor, SOP

8 years ago – easter, usa backs out of kyoto protocol, bob ross, GiftiesGeotarget

9672 – monday – back to work!

Well, back is still being tricky, but I was ok enough to go gently back to the office!

Back is sore, and poor BHK has contact allergy / dermatitis – We’re both just sort of shambling around for the moment, and trying to keep our heads together.

Fortunately, we’re both in pretty good moods, despite my nagging her not to scratch.

We were blessed by not having to make dinner tonight – Chris and Larry came back from the camping / Environmental trip with the Chesapeake Bay Foundation, and they picked up Chinese food and a 10-layer cake for us to gobble up while they regaled us with tales of no electricity, mud and guides with Elvis sideburns.

We cooled our heels, and watched a little NCIS (and In-law staple that I don’t mind at all) and then a really good Annie Oakley documentary on PBS. I have a new found respect for the lady.

Here, dear journal –  have a Pyewacket pic and a newton movie! Pye looking outside from my comfy zone on the couch, and Newton running around while BHK and I relax from the same area.


1 year ago – Aardvark (jonah hex & diplomacy), diarRhita’s, car show rained out, apples to apples

2 years ago – walkabout pictures (DC area), SMIB

3 years ago – loki, fundraiser, 33 questions, morning pictures, palm post bro, tree dream

4 years ago – appointment, bro homeless, electron thoughts, videos, broken umbrellas, space 1999:waka waka, 300 island resort, typo on bus, walkies pictures, beaten barricade

5 years ago – smelly books, surreal compliments, passover joke, vampire game

6 years ago – sleeveless smock, downloadable toons, bunky kabalarians, colossal squid, CoC props.

7 years ago – landlord visit, green monkey pizza, pop pardoned the knights templar,nazi-looking stamp, Japanese business card etiquette, movies, tubers

8 years ago – Killer noise, looking for a job as a flaneur, Dave & Cathi PreggersGeotarget

9668 – Thursday

Bhk eyes red and puffy – pepper reaction seems to be getting worse. She went with me to see to Dr moody – confirmed that i should stay out until at least Monday. Prescribed some drops for BHK, and rest for me.  I will have a follow-up appt on Wednesday.
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1 year ago – quiche and summer salad, Read Baltimore / Steadfast Tin soldier, relationships torpedoed by book incompatibility, book info, communities created in lj, starship dimensions, skyscrapers

2 years ago – Lovey note from BHK, work stuffs, Bohl family, Newt/Pye dynamic.

3 years ago – walkies with pix, lost an hour, quizzes, amazing circle, hot sauce and garden spray, its a shame

4 years ago – dan hates my bucket-hat, day in the life, 3 doors down, bro issues

5 years ago – CoH, squirrel, JG a blond/, man eating plants, thorax cake, free energy, reality settings

6 years ago – Iraq-o-meter, 100 greatest AFD hoaxes, train trip

7 years ago – office politics and people, modern major general, joe vs the volcano, boilerplate, bare necessities, text msg’ed, weather, reality gauge, newton the destroyer, black water mass

8 years ago – glowworms, school mascots, schwa, wedding / scotto job trivia, Murray Head, list trimsGeotarget

9667 Wednesday –

I spent April fool’s day fading back and forth from dreamland.

I mostly napped – spent the day in muscle-relaxant torpor.

BHK and I had some tasty black-pepper popcorn  – bhk may’ve had an allergic reaction, or a steam hit? She’s a little red around eyes and a little arm area.

While doped up, I spent a little time playing with the panorama-stitching program (haven’t used it in ages)

Some results of blending multiple pics below –

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1 year ago – april fool – I don’t prank, BHK ill, Night watch, Day Watch, T-Man and Pixx preggers!, the hearse.

2 years ago – scary garden gnome, prank text message

3 years ago – see newt chase a paper wad, new camera, April fool, Scotto utility belt, eagle in the sky

4 years ago – Angsty Bro stuff, making fiends, spam, sticker graffito, social hygiene posters, doodle pay offer (never was paid for it), new doc out, Mitch Hedberg dead, goat’s milk eggs, Sin City

5 years ago – Ossuaries, CoH, LJ 4/1 gag, impression meme

6 years ago – If I were a, fuel cells, JKG, 20,000 leagues

7 years ago – reprint, life changes, teacher with 17 dogs, that’s my baby whale, critter poll, pikachu vs badger, doc visit, mario moonlighting

8 years ago – midget wrestler, glow worm, april fools, nice dreams, I don’t like AFD, Computer update, midget wrestler-scottoGeotarget

9666 – Tuesday


Franklin followed me in to work again this morning! I think he missed me (or my treats) over the weekend. Very snuggly- I could hardly walk for all the ankle rubbing he was doing


Backdated and entered after the fact.


update – fell at work – went knees over noggin as a result of an unstable chair.- went to the ER and was told to take things gently until monday – so much for the cherry blossom festival this weekend. not at work either, for the time being. 


ER pic- post x-ray, waiting for my prescription.


I’m ok now… in pain, but on meds and relaxing. Off my feet for this week.

1 year ago – aquarium pics, alice’s party, frogs, industrial-style bookstore, blu bamboo

2 years ago – cherry tree pic, dinner with cyn & bhk at Mexico

3 years ago – payday, mortgage day, cases run at last minute, sams, first pic of newt with new cam, grumpy newt pic

4 years ago – collections, sick call excuse, palm doodles of ape-o-naut and we’re ants guy, famous monkeys through history, fatcats, newt pic, lost seeding, cell phone abuse, vampires taste like corn, poop thief, doctor vs cop

5 years ago – sensory experiment, propeller island lodge, privacy/recording laws, newsmap, viral spam

6 years ago – insider trading time traveler, gigs

7 years ago – nice morning, honey, clowns, bentons, google bombs, methadone to wean criminals *on* to heroin, interest index, radioactive beans, Chuck Heston

8 years ago – No-nose’s gf, hanging out with bro, new pooterGeotarget